Not Where I Want To Be

Woman running in conventional running shoes vs barefoot running shoes.Turns out, I was right. And while I wish my husband said these sweet words to me more often, this is one of those cases where I wish I was so wrong.

In the very first entry of this Blog series, I set out to make myself accountable. I wanted to publicly commit to training for the Virginia Running Festival’s Half-Marathon at Christopher Newport University and document the challenges of fitting in a training schedule while also growing a family business, raising an active 3-year-old and volunteering in a community I love.

I made a prediction this summer when I kick started my training plan that it would be hard to juggle it all.

Turns out, I was right.

As I type this, I KNOW I will be ready for the upcoming race. But I’m not where I want to be.

I’m about two weeks off of where I’d like to be. Admittedly, I had hoped to drop a pesky five extra pounds through this training process, and instead I’ve put on two. I hoped I’d be faster by now, having taken my average pace down to about 8 minutes and 15 seconds per mile. I’m still hovering around nine, depending on the time of day I run.

But here’s the thing. While I may be frustrated, I’m reminding myself of the goal – to run the half marathon. There wasn’t a personal best time I was striving to beat – although that would have been nice. I needed this to get back into the game.

So here I am, once again calling myself out.

It’s roughly two weeks before the run.

I’m not where I want to be…and I’m not happy about that. But I’m still going to finish that half. I’m still going to make my goal. And when the next race rolls around, I’ll make sure I am exactly where I want to be come race day.

After all, in life, with an incredible husband and hilariously fun and loving little boy, I am exactly where I want to be.

Stephanie Heinatz is a mother, wife, small business owner and running enthusiast who’s working to get back on her running game. Follow her training saga here as she gets ready for the Virginia Running Festival’s Half-Marathon at Christopher Newport University on Nov. 10, 2013.  Stephanie is the founder of Consociate Media, a local Marketing firm located in Gloucester, Virginia.